Someone Bigger Than Me

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Ever since I can remember, I always knew there was someone bigger than me. I had three windows in my childhood bedroom and one gave me a beautiful view of our side yard. I could watch the sky and trees and whoever happened to be in the driveway at the time. It was my little corner of heaven. I would stare out of my window and wonder, “How does everything in nature know its place? Someone must have placed the world and all the natural wonders where they are for a reason. But why, and do I even need to know why? Is it my place to ask?”

It has always been a chief pleasure of mine to sit in that corner and ponder the mysteries of life. It wasn’t until a friend of mine invited me to a Carman concert that I found out just who that someone was. I was sitting in the nosebleed section, and Carman had an alter call. At that point in time I didn’t have a clue what that was, and if I went down, what that would mean for me. To this day, I remember Carman saying, “Are you tired of the chains that way you down? Are you tired of trying to do things on your own?”  I thought to myself, “Yes, yes I am tired of being a lone wolf. I want to join the pack. I need help and I need friends. Ultimately, I need you God, not just once in a while, but always. “  I think I literally pushed past my friend, her brother, and her parents to get down to the stage. My head was reeling and I kept thinking I have no idea what I am doing I just know I need to do it. I am so happy I made that choice, because now I see my life through heaven’s eyes. Ever since that moment I have changed so much.  Immediately my interest in Egyptology and the darker religious sects ceased. I began to see how blind the Egyptians were and how blind I was.  God made everything so simple. He took the guess work out of everything.  I started to read the bible and not just retain basic plotlines of stories but gain knowledge and wisdom. I feel that I am one of the blessed ones because I was saved at a young age.  I was only fifteen at the time and ever since that concert Carman’s music breathes my soul better than any other music. I get so hyped up and excited because life is not complicated and I don’t have to worry about everything. I do my best and push myself as far as I can to perfection. I know now that I will never be perfect, for we have all fallen short of the glory of God. I’ll tell you a secret that God told me, “ You don’t ever have to be perfect, but the simple fact that you try makes you perfect in My eyes.”

Christi Nuhfer
Drama Team, Video Team